Songs in our hearts that just can’t be said,
thoughts that live inside our heads, songs that make us dread,
songs we only hear when we lie in bed,
songs we only believe when we feel so dead,
My mind and I we aren’t friends
It doesn’t know what it costs what it spends
It doesn’t tell me anything leaves me with too many open ends
Spitting rhymes like a fiend
Don’t want my emotions free
But I can’t help myself
It’s what it wants to speak
People think I’m weird
Look at me like I’m a freak
But I can’t help but stand back in relief
Because I know it’s not true
It’s something I don’t believe
I spit this so fast I can’t breathe
When could you see I’m not perfect
Nobody can be
Nobody can see
What I keep underneath
Because of what I sing
And when I shriek
I can’t fight I can’t leave
I just stay in the same place
I guess I preach
Should my thoughts be moving?
My thoughts are confusing
They are the ones that move me
They take my soul and help it bleed
They take my pain and make me scream
Poke and pluck at my happiness till it’s just a dream
Pull my love and tear it from me
Stabs my eyes so I cannot see
Just annihilate me and leave
Fight the joy and “peace” ✌️
Take my pride just out of reach
I don’t know if I trust myself anymore
The people, pains, stressful wars
Rip out my power source
Destroy my core
I can’t help but be sore
All over my body, every single pore
I hide my feelings inside, indoors
Always just sad, alone inside, and emotionally poor
These songs aren’t just for fame
They aren’t just written because there’s no change
I’m not lame I got some things that hate
Lots of pain and shame
I tried to get away but the thoughts just rang
Inside my head as I stood in the rain
I can’t feel I can’t be blamed
It’s not my fault I can’t be tamed
The spirit tells me what to do
But do I listen, probably not
This isn’t new
I have to just ignore the things that are true
I have to deal with the facts and issues
I have to understand the tears and tissues
Because if I don’t, how would I help you
How would I save those who need to be seen through
How could I understand the feelings and pains, all the pews
The churches and gospels different views
But it’s not about what we believe it’s about what we do
We need to spread love no matter what, it’s due
We are gonna be late start catching up, and loading the queue
Don’t be afraid the many outweigh the few
A journey through my emotions. I was upset had to write and create something to get out of my head. I had to run as fast as I could. Take this as you will.