The pain it was in the past tense
Thought I left it back then
Thought I could feel again
But I was wrong and
There is no escape
No escape
From my brain my brain
Yeah it’s my pain it’s my pain
The humanity
The difference between my sanity
And my insanity
All the problems it’s been handing me
No way out no plan for me
Just hurt god I’m scared to leave
I wanna be safe but happy
that won’t happen for awhile no matter how much I am planning
So
I need to find a solution
All these wounds and bruises
I can’t help it, I lose and
No matter what road I take and direction Im choosing
It’s a game that I knew
Not a game that was true
But I fell and now I’m staring up to the roof
I’m lower then low
All the people I know
Not one of them could prove to show
Dang there’s the kite and the crows
Eating at the sky’s as it chose
That gulf of misery and wo!
It’s been eating me alive
Death i tried to hide
Running from suicide
Keep up my delights
Hide in my disguise
No one can see the signs
No one can read the lines
Fight the songs and the rhymes
Keep from the lyrics the pain the things that I write! Ah!
I’ve been trying really trying
The things that I thought were real were only lying
The people that said everything was gonna be okay, sure it’s fine and
I know you didn’t mean to lie and keep me finding
The truth the reality, the logic the spirit that’s hiding
But when I find the spirit and I can finally feel it
I’ll understand I will finally read it
I can see the light finally start healing
The pain the lies it’s all been screaming
But it was a faker and wasn’t real and
Soon I’ll be okay away from fear and
I can find the safety the truth and all those feelings
I’ll see you on the other side after all the tears
The dangerous conquest, friends and peers
The adventure the loss and the screams you hear
Don’t be afraid just keep on the wheel, remember how to steer
Never let go no matter the road, stick with what you know remember your strong and heaven is near
Dang, seems like it was a rough time in my life. Then I laugh and see distant memories of consistent rough times in my life. Honestly life is still rough, I’ve just learned how to react.