(Verse 1) I really don’t know what to say
I been puttin you through all of that pain
Thinking about every single way
That I put in you in dismay
(Rap 1) I just wish I could go back
Back on track do you know that
I just wanna go to that day
That I left you with that last lap
I shoulda been there
I could’ve been there
I really loved you
Tried to show you
But I let it all go-lost control-shoulda known
From the start that I could lose it all—so fast
(Pre-Chorus 1) Saw you fall like glass
I could see the ashes
Left behind you
As I burn and slash
At what defines you
(Chorus 1) Because I see the way he makes you smile
I sit and I just watch awhile
I see the feelings I used to feel
The ones I have to keep concealed
Because I left you shattered
I left you shattered
That day
(Verse 2) Things didn’t end very well
It felt like I just threw you in a cell
Every step I take just digs me
Even deeper into hell
I’m not the one to blame
I’m the one that brings shame
Not to me or my friends
But to my feelings
(Rap 2) the hearts that were broken
The hearts that were cracked
The hearts I broke into a million scraps
Seeing the pain I bring
The shame I sing
I hate I see
The ache that rings inside of me
(Pre-Chorus 2) The bloods on my hands
Who the heck I am
This relationship was just a sham
I want you to find somebody who can
(Chorus 2) I see the way I break your smile
I sit and i just watch awhile
I see the feelings that I used to feel
The ones that I have to keep concealed
I just left you shattered
Oh I left you shattered today.
(Instrumental)
(The first Chorus mixed with second at the end)
The Story Behind it: it was my first song I ever wrote, and my buddy had made and instrumental with his guitar that I could work with to write a song after we both shared our interests in making music. Soon after I sat in my room and wrote on an old notebook and just went for it. I listened to the instrumental many times while writing and made an actual song. I ended up really enjoying it and wrote about these girls that I was a douche bag to, classic 8th grade crushes and stuff like that. But it actually means a lot and meant a lot in that moment so it was super cool and is the song that began this whole journey.