Life is confusing
My brain is bruising
I don’t know what to do and
Everything is moving
Idk who I am
I’m not a man
Maybe it’s time I grew up and grabbed your hand
Maybe it’s time for me to have hope
Maybe it’s time for me to think anything besides nope
I don’t know maybe it’s just me
But somethings really hurt me when I start to believe
And then they grab me by my neck and force me down to grieve
And then they throw me around and fill me with greed
I feel like my heart isn’t full
Oh wait it is,
With evil things that I pull
But yet they sneak into my heart
They’re changing me for the worse
Making me mean and coarse
Push me on all fours
But maybe
Just maybe
Maybe I could find redemption
Maybe I could fight repetition
Maybe I could get away from competition
Idk what’s gotten into me
I’m so tired and me doesn’t feel like me
And I don’t know who I am or who I want to be
I’m someone that leads people to nothing free
To things that just break me
And get me to my knees
Of forsaken disbeliefs
I just want to swim not sink
Get away from being on the brink
Of getting sad and starting to think
Shoot me and my self esteem
Bring me down to my knees
Grab me and make me green
Shake as I fall and lean
Break me till I crawl and dream
Of standing up someday and sowing the seems
At this point a drill for when I was empty.