All those feelings they left without me
They left me behind and sailed the vast sea
Far away from here because they wanted to leave
Get away from my ridiculous anxiety
Leave me to preach
C’mon you gotta help me out
You gotta get me on my feet, up and about
If I don’t start moving I’m going to shout
Lose my mind and yell some stuff out loud
I’m gonna worry start to get sad and pout
Remember those feelings they threw me to the ground
When I hit, they shook me and no one was around
I couldn’t hear anything I was left without a sound
Nothing can help me get up, help me fight, help me get out
So please someone find me when I’m losing my way
When I’m trapped inside my darkness there’s nothing left to say
someone help me because I’ve walked away
Away from my happiness, and even forgotten how to pray
So please know me well enough to see
That sometimes I’m not exactly gonna be
The perfect person you believe
The person that you need
I struggle, I wanna help you out, I wanna set you free
But I can’t when I’m stuck in my own greed and all I do is overthink
Find a way to understand my deepest of feelings
Find a way to see the real things
That are going on inside my soul and inside my life
listen to the things your told and when I cry
Know that I really care and things might not be so right
That I might be in a deep pain that I might need some time
When I’m rapping or rhyming I usually feel alright
But sometimes I feel like I’m in one big fight
With my feelings and what they want me to write
When it’s there turn to take control, it’s their turn to drive
It’s scary sometimes I gotta give up the wheel
To some of the stuff that I hide the stuff that I feel
Because it’s the only way, what I write it becomes real
It’s the only way that I know my fate it’s sealed
It’s just words, what could it really mean
Oh hell you don’t even get it you won’t even believe
What I go through when I sit and I breathe
And jot down all my thoughts when my brain is peeved
My brain it has me buckled in a car seat
It’s racing through the coldness and turned up the car heat
How sweet
I bleed
Get off me it’s my creed
It’s soft serve, but heck it ain’t ice cream
I’m honored, I wanna rap that’s my dream
So let me do what I want, let me tie seams
just topping this off, it’s frosting, it’s icing
On the cake that I call, what is my scene
So yeah let me go, let me try things
I don’t care about the haters, they might sting
they don’t matter no they won’t get in my ring
I’ll knock em dead, I won’t even try I’ll be vibing
So for the last time don’t forget what I’ll bring
Listen to what I preach, what I say, and what I sing
Because you’ll never hear something more special, and more downright powerful then what I sing
Ayyy get it Ben. This is my first time trying to write an actual rap to a beat. Good for a first time not great for an actual rap. Definitely had some improvement since then. I love the mood it gives off though.