I haven’t had too much time to write. I feel like getting lost in my mind is more difficult recently. For some reason finding meaning feels hard. Like my heart is made of ice or i was burned alive or like I could barely stand on my feet and fight. It’s like before I used to fly, but after there’s just people who die. Lost to the dust man they just fall away. I watch as those fall apart around me. Or even as some people fall through the cracks and disappear. Under our nose we let them slip. Lost to that guy. We cannot let go, we cannot give up. We must stand united and fight. We cannot and will not fall. To be conquered is to lose all honor in our names. Why die without a cause. You must die with honor knowing you fought for what you believed and were a knowing person in the world. You have to fight and argue and be willing to say what must be said. I have to leave now to a dance full of people I don’t want to know. There is some nice people but it’s never believers. Everyone’s given up on religion because they aren’t better then everything else. The reality is insecurities just making them blame God for not helping. My best friends tell me about how they used to be religious but it was just too hard to believe or they never felt anything. Then they let the church and the PEOPLE who aren’t perfect decide for them how they should feel about a gospel. It’s not about the big buildings and words in a Book it’s about what we believe and the ways we honor our God. Don’t lose hope, just because life isn’t perfect doesn’t mean God isn’t real. I’m not trying to trigger anyone, because I know a big thing our country struggles with is offending others. But I got the freedom to opinions and for my friends and closest relatives to lack the ability to feel safe and forgiven hurts my heart. I just want everyone to be happy, because I know the only reason I’m happy is because I sit in peace with God. My passion is here right now, don’t for a second think I’m upset or mad at anyone, I just love you guys, I want everyone to feel okay, I want everyone to have the redemption. If you can’t win the battles in this life, God is merciful and there is always the 1000 years he gives us to work on ourselves, and I’ll be there to hold you and welcome you home.
