This might be hard to hear but dang it been 2 years
And I’ve been thinking and relinking pieces of my mind that hold my fears
and its returned but not for others not for peers
its here because the tears I shed every night yeah they don’t just dissapear
They keep returning because the spirit knows what I do, you are my career
and I think it is telling me to prepare for what’s coming next
That soon I’ll be gone, not just laying in my bed
I wont be here to speak to you and hear the things you have said
But instead Ill be fed the words from the gospels godhead
Ill be unable to hold you when your stressed
Ill be unable to show you everything I get
I wont be able to think of when we met
Ill keep on learning to help those that have debts
Show them nothings gonna hurt them even when they feel those threats
You showed me how to help others with my words
you guided me to some solutions that saved it from becoming worse
you showed me how to love another individual
you helped me remember when I felt invisible
You showed me how to have fun and how to spend all my time being happy
you showed me where I’m from and helped me stop relapsing
you made it easy to keep my dreaming mind from screaming at all my feelings that were bleeding reading all those dangerous ceilings finding words without no meaning just like inceptions greeting me to meeting all my darkest feedings like a dog that’s breeding with his saddest healing stories never seeking understanding reaching something that’s just fleeting when really its not super creepy to just stare continue weeping at the war from evening thinking simply just walking and leaving made me feel so pleasing so please don’t leave me even when I’m leaving let me read these..
let me read these final words
let show you this last verse
about this broken persons burns
how they healed because a girl
took her chances on his work
made him grow out from his hurt
changed his life better not worse
but now he has to walk away
but wont say what he needs to say
because he is afraid
that you might see him as someone whos faith got challenged and gave up everything he praised
simply because he’s weak
has a mental streak
of blood that’s bleak left with his street address so you can find him sinking down the sink drown nd scream and leap for one last thing he must keep
its you its always you
I never want to fall in love but I know its going to be you
you’re so beautiful its true
I never want to walk away and I know its gonna be new
if only you knew you knew
I never want to leave but a friendships good too
so please don’t break my heart
don’t tear us apart
just because this starts
early and its hard to go back
but I want you to know how much I’ve grown
simply because you know who I am and what I don’t own
I wasn’t crying because I was upset at you
Or because you did something wrong don’t get it screwed
But because I’m so heartbroken that I have to leave you
because if the memories that we share the times my heart was see through
the time I climbed a mountain just to even see you
I never wanted to leave I wanted to regroup
let this world stay behind us and see it in the rear view
I know I say this a lot
But you don’t know how much heart this has cost
that I don’t know if ill be okay because ill be lost
I cant lose your friendship its just not what I want
So please still talk to me, don’t leave me on this cross
let me down so I wont have to feel what has been brought
ill do anything if you keep spending time with me
even if I have to hangout with your new boyfriend and overthink
even if I have to sit there while you sleep
even if I must watch you as you leave
even if I have to take that final leap
if you were in heaven the skies even this deep
I would dig into the words, the verses, just to find you and weep
because of my joy that join me when I find my queen
