Yeah aye c’mon let these lyrics be the song that I write when I’m feeling wrong
When I’m lost in myself and I’m downright gone and can’t fight no way to live strong
Yeah look at my life it’s just chaos
I can’t fight let’s just lay off
Yeah
Get out of my way I wanna be saved but I can’t when I’m faced with all the pain that eats at me till I break I’m lost in my brain c’mon let’s be sane let’s move on I ain’t to blame
I wanna be changed I wanna praised
For my sanity for my waves
For the ways that I sing my songs the ways that I pray
C’mon let’s go look at myself
What did I do, not doing so well
Be better, something that’s swell
When really I’m not I’m just in a cell
Keep on laughing while I clean up my shelf
cuz I’m lost by the wealth
And I gotta keep climbing cuz that’s why I fell
A poison, they cast a spell
The pain something they always tell
Your never getting out of this hell
Yeah I’m getting out of this hell
So let’s go back remember the words that I write with my broke back
The stacks of paper left by my notepad
I’m ashamed, yeah satan just laughs
my go backs, looking like a returned note lab
my words and things that spoke facts
Weren’t real enough and had no real maps
They were fake something that truth slapped
I want this to be about something new
I wanna show you
All myself, all of my views
I’m screaming this to the pews
my heart is so bruised
I write this pain
on this page
But you’ll never get it you won’t see my blame
You won’t see the things that push on my brain
That alter how I act, make me change
That break my heart, I am in pain
I’m broken a loser I’m lame
when it’s all up in my face
You’ll never get I’m always the base
I’m dark and deep, that’s fake
I try so hard but the lord can’t save
Me as long I fight the things he gave me
I fight all the things that can save me
Because I’m emotionally in flame please
Someone save me let me be flame free
Let the burning stop and be blaze free
I wanna be safely
Stuck in safety
Go ahead make me
Stuck in this bane seize
My mind was just shooting blanks
So I just kept building with planks
Things that couldn’t keep me stable, Id shake
I am up all night, always awake
I just lay, never something to say
Just blank looking at myself through the path of my brain
I always get caught in the past not in the rain
I just wanna be payed, for the things that I work so hard for the things that I break because I’m unstable, not doing anything
About it
Yeah
I gotta get working I gotta keep stopping
All the smirking and all of the shopping
Forget it this world is more mopping
Doing the boring stuff just to end up walking
Well I’m done walking hear me now I’m not stopping
I running at full speed with my heart pumping through both knees
Keep sprinting till I get a nose bleed
Keep going through Satans full fleet
Gonna keep fighting till I fall weak
Keep kicking till I lost both feet
Till I got nothing left but a heartbeat
But wait that’s not what matters
it’s the lords means
Broken and shattered
Lost in the books while my heart is splattered
The things he says when he leaves me
Open to pray and be free
Of sin and what pain seeks
I don’t cuz I’m lost and he Knows me and the things that reach me
That break me and singe me
I gotta be better no more cringing
At the scary things I’m casually binging
I’m lost and can’t keep fringing
All the things that I’m fishing
Catching myself intensely
Tired of fending for my life against the demons neverending
The time I’m spending on pointless things that got no setting
Things that I’m getting just letting me fall no matter my betting
Man my heart is never wedding
Want to be safe but I’m always sweating
My souls just lending
Itself to the friendly
Demons they could end me
my heart needs mending
But it’s hard when I’m trending
Like social media, it’s ending, it’s pending
Stuck in my mind it’s nesting
Just like the Demons neverending
Well just my first actual song. Was it good absolutely not, haha. But it was a start and I intend to finish what I have began. I will one day release a song so powerful, well written and beautiful.