Faith is hard to find
I wish I could see it, but the pain has left me blind
Ya know I always just sit there stressing and depending on my mind
Instead of coming unto god more often and actually falling asleep at night
Lord I love you and you make me exactly who I want to be
But I need you to know that I make mistakes more easily
And that’s no excuse I’ll put the work in
But it’s different now and the glass I’m standing on is far more thin
Your the person that I love the most and would do anything for
But when it comes to me my problems keep me up and make me feel weak and poor
I can’t help but have anxiety
No matter how hard I try and believe
That everything is fine, and you Would never leave
But it’s hard when I can’t forgive myself
When I’m lying in bed with an upset stomach and not so good of health
When I hurt inside physically and spiritually and I’m stuck in my own personal hell
I’m trying to come unto you Christ
It’s hard when that guy is telling me lies
But I promise you no matter what I have to sacrifice
That I will do anything to be able to be forgiven for my crimes
Somehow I’m going to have to prove it to you
Maybe buy you a new car a nice pair of shoes?
But I know what you really want, you want me to love you.
But it’s hard when the sin keeps breaking my walls and keeps showing through
I’m sorry lord it always is difficult to stand up and hold close to the truth
But I know that I can do anything if I stay close to You
And fight the bad, show the good and love everyone no matter what they do
It’s time I start doing service for others
It’s the best I could do when families are losing there mothers
I love my Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ, they make me so happy, and I will build my testimony and stand strong in the face of evil.
Here we are coming back home to where I belong. Writing and discussing the gospel, a time of pain lead to the greatest rewards. In our lives we will learn that our deepest of lows create our highest of highs. Without lows there would be no highs. Without falling there is no rising.