Ya know this feelings is rough
This feeling isn’t love
This feeling is lust
And it breaks relationships apart
And rips them open and breaks there hearts
And shatters families who were faking from the start
I don’t want this to be a part
Of me and put in on the charts
I want to be clean and free
away from things and greed
Nobody is an object
When you think that then your the subject
Of the devil and his followers
And you tempt him and he makes you hollower
He fights for your soul
And you gotta fight back
And tugs and pulls
And you gotta fight that
It’s hard and bites back
And when you are stuck in your head
And you’re heart is flat
You gotta talk to god if you wanna be lead
your stuck and it’s rough then forget it
Your stuck in a bluff then forget it
Go against your gut, you might regret it
If you said something you better have meant it
If your gonna be shy you gotta learn to send it
If your gonna break something you better mend it
It’s tough, life loves screwing you over
Your making mistakes but you are getting older
And you may be sinner and you might be colder
You might ask for help but just keep getting the shoulder
Life’s hard and it sucks sometimes
People are gonna tell you that you have no spine
You make mistakes then you make them into rhymes
You screw up from time to time
It’s hard when everybody thinks your out of your mind
And they think it’s part of life “get over it your gonna be fine”
And then you sitting there like nevermind
You ain’t gotta cross any lines But that’s just not the case don’t think you gotta hide
Because through mistakes the only thing you’ll find
Is stuff that gets rid of your failures and makes you divine
And takes the hatred and depression and turns it inside
To open up all your heart and you’ll finally shine
Ya know reading this one was simply a reminder of exactly what I recently wrote about me. And now this song is a letter to me to motivate me and keep me from grouching around. Beginning was like whatever and then the end just hit me like a car, even though I wrote it. Unique the way words from our own brains can feel familiar and so unfamiliar at the same time. Gets me thinking about if I really know myself.