I wish I could have a new start
Fighting is so tiring
I want a job but no ones hiring
I want to hide from all them firing
I wish I could finally fix my heart
I wish It wouldn’t have gotten ripped apart
I wish I could get a new start
New start
New start
(Ripped apart)apart apart apart
Sometimes I get confused
Other times I am infused
With all these feelings I haven’t used
I can’t even move
Sometimes I shake with anger
Shake the manger
I can’t handle the stranger
Who talks me down
Who Throws me around
Who Pushes me until I drown
He made me super fragile
he yells at me like I’m a child
He gets to me and I’m caught
It seems For me a little’s a lot
Any change Will always alter my thoughts
And all those thoughts weigh a million pounds
His hate is My fate that pushes me to the ground
But now
I screwed this strangers hate
I decide my own fate
No wait
I decide his fate
For on this date
He will be locked up in my gate
I made just for him
I wish I could have a new start
Fighting is so tiring
I want a job but no ones hiring
I want to hide from all them firing
I wish I could finally fix my heart
I wish It wouldn’t have gotten ripped apart
I wish I could get a new start
New start
New start
(Ripped heart)heart heart heart
I sit there and laugh in his face
Make sure he cleans up all of his trace
That He left all up in my space
Finally it’s over, since he’s gone
I’m definitely free, I’m not wrong
I’m sorry but I’m gonna do me From now on
Now that I’m not held down from those chains from hell
Now that he’s stuck up in a cell
I’m able to see
What I could really be
I want to adventure this big sea
And find out what could come
Step to that edge and jump
Find myself and write a real song
Maybe it won’t be so depressing
Maybe I won’t be so suppressing
Maybe I can open up
Tell people what’s really going on
And stop this big snuff
On my flame
I ain’t living lame
I can show all of you
I can be tame
And I ain’t lying it’s true
Maybe all y’all will really understand
Find yourself and take a stand
To that stranger
That gives you anger
And shakes your manger
Then after she screws with you for the last time
you can hang her
I was really getting into the writing scene at this point. One of my best times expressing my emotions and being able to write them down clearly. A battle with the voices in my head that seems to be never-ending…